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The Dream Job

2012-01-29T10:59:00.000-08:00

I used to dream on having a dream job. A very your-own-job that keeping your spirit alive, making your days so enjoyable and carefree.

Honestly, I am on the track of searching. The phase of beginning. I suppose this is just a process. Avoiding the mindset of hating. Instead, learning. I really do hoping for sastisfaction of working. You work for living. The works of not getting things done but getting things work. Into more process not result. For now.

Old Man and The Sea

2012-01-19T09:01:00.000-08:00

Ini bukan bercerita tentang buku Ernest Hemingway. Tapi ini mengenai seorang pria yang telah memasuki pertengahan usia 40an-nya. Seorang yang masih punya semangat dan kekuatan dalam menjalani kehidupannya. This old man, is strong enough to sail in the sea. Upon stormy sky and crashing seawaves.

Dia mempunyai idealis, visi dan harapan. Sebuah kombinasi lekat yang dapat memecah badai. Sebuah karakter yang menyenangkan, hidup dan bersinar.

Thank you old man. A friend. For those stories.

Tentang seorang teman

2012-01-16T07:02:00.000-08:00

Alkisah saya mempunyai seorang teman. Lama. Dahulu di kampus kita sering bertemu dan sering berhubungan baik dari sisi perkuliahan ataupun pekerjaan. Dulu kita sering ngobrol bagai teman apa adanya. Ketawa. Jokes standar antar teman.

Sekarang. Dia berubah. Dia sudah berada di puncak gunung tertinggi. Dia menggapai cita-citanya. Dia bukan lagi yang dahulu. Sekarang berbicara apa adanya. Menjaga jarak.Menjadi orang lain.

Ya sudahlah. Semua orang berubah. Semoga kita menjadi lebih baik. Amin.

Pagi yang Menakjubkan

2012-01-16T03:05:00.000-08:00

Originally this blog title is posted on Tuesday, December 05, 2006. In my old blog. With Monkey Swallows The Universe - Sheffield Shanty song link. Such a good song. In a wonderful year. I miss my old me.

Bonobo - Kiara

2012-01-12T10:25:00.000-08:00

Super sound of pleasure. Thanks Bonobo.

New phone and new habit

2012-01-12T10:23:00.000-08:00

It's funny that i have new habits because of phone's changing. Yes, i switched to so-called-smartphone Blackberry. I sure do interested with the fast push mail feature. And oh yeah, this, Blackberry Messenger. Connecting better to friends and work colleages. Fair enough, selling my old phone and exchange it with this device in the palm of my hand.

My habits. My new habits. Checking phone more often. Tweeting unclearly.. Chit-chatting more on WhatsApp. World is smaller. Literally.

Plus versus minus. Bad battery life. Unreliable system stability. Such unsatisfying device. But, what distinguishing me from the-connected-life before, Blackberry Messenger, is eating me alive. I gave up. So you, Blackberry be nice to me. I won't hesitate to exchange you right away. Yes.

Years

2012-01-05T09:26:00.001-08:00

Here I am. Another year passed. A milestone of life. What should I really do. Grateful or regret.

Here I am. In the chaotic life. The unidentified path. There's no way out.

Here I am. Alone.

Welcome new year.

People and Trouble

2012-01-02T10:18:00.000-08:00

Lately I found that people on my Twitter timeline are quite cranky. Getting close to bad tempered. Is it me or are they having bad sense of humor?

Where are good laughs? Why so many people are too serious with everything? Are you stressed with your job buddy? Quit! Because you're just one step away from getting nuts.

Home

2011-12-26T01:29:00.000-08:00

I miss home. The place where every I can feel life. Place of where the sky is so blue with beautiful clouds. The warm air and the rest of easy days.

I forgot how it feels. I don't know where I am going. Life's too fast and too soon. Some things are better not be changed and just left where it should be.

Where is home?

Landslide

2011-03-13T01:37:00.000-08:00

Don't know why but i'm loving this song currently. The lyrics are just more than pkay.

Human After All

2010-11-02T20:54:00.000-07:00

Nobody is holding too tight. Nobody wants it so badly.
We are moving forwards and don't look back.
Those stories just to be left behind.
Let's put it aside.
Because we are human after all.

Peer Pressure

2010-10-28T08:04:00.000-07:00

Peer pressure? Mungkin cuman terlintas ketika lo masih jadi abege. Kenyataannya sih nggak. Peer pressure sebenernya kan sebuah tekanan yang muncul terhadap sebuah personal agar dia berubah karena keharusan daripada norma grup sosial dimana dia termasuk. Sebut saja kaya temen-temen kampus. Rekan kerja. Sejenisnya.

Jika kita masuk dalam sebuah grup yang positif, tentu dorongan-dorongan agar terlibat kegiatan yang positif adalah hal yang bagus. Namun, jika sebaliknya, bukanlah hal yang bisa dibanggain. Well, gw tau beberapa temen gw punya social group yang positif dan negatif. Begitu juga dengan gw sendiri. I'm far from that perfect shit. Bisa dibilang malah social group gw mostly adalah bernilai tidak begitu positif. Ya... let's say aga-aga negatif geto. Hahaha. Cuman satu hal yang pasti, gw percaya beberapa temen gw adalah orang dengan nilai positif yang patut dijadikan pemacu dalam melakukan apapun.

Nah, balik lagi ke soal temen gw yang satu ini. Gw rasa dia saat ini adalah seorang yang terjebak akan tekanan pertemenan dia. Cukup aneh untuk seorang 'dia' melakukan sebuah hal yang gw anggap tidak normal. Atau mungkin memang itulah yang ingin dia capai? Nobody knows.

Tekanan bisa membuat kita tidak fokus. Ga berada di jalur yang seharusnya. Bisa jadi kaya gugup, kikuk dan bertingkah ga wajar. Dalam lingkup yang lebih luas, tekanan yang terus-menerus bisa membuat kita berubah juga pada akhirnya. Dari analogi seperti inilah gw menerapkan pandangan gw terhadap temen gw ini. Mungkin ini memang hal yang harus dia lakukan biar dapat diterima dilingkungan dia. For that matter, i sign i wish you well. Seperti judul lagu Helios.

This is pre-midnite thinking. Aga ngaco dan dicampur kesal karena koneksi speedy yang ajeb-ajeb. Oh how i love speedy. I do .

You Lost The Starlight In Your Eyes

2010-10-27T05:09:00.000-07:00

This song always have something everytime i listen to it:

All the nights we tried and tried,
to find the starlight in your eyes.
All the hours we cried and cried,
you lost the starlight in your eyes.

Happy

2010-10-25T23:23:00.000-07:00

Memoryhouse - Bonfire

2010-10-24T16:24:00.000-07:00

And I'll keep moving westward
Along these streets at once descending
Shift beneath the floorboards
Of our bed as you lie sleeping
Set ablaze the violet room
To dissolve the memory of
All I wonder unavenged
Silence keep repeating
Its the same
Its the same

The whole lyric here.

Never Let Me Go

2010-10-24T08:43:00.001-07:00

Dari film ini. Melihat cover nya aja udah mengundang. Saatnya mendengarkan.

The Path of Life

2010-10-24T07:49:00.000-07:00

Beberapa rekan gw sering menanyakan keadaan gw. Tentu saya jawab bahwa keadaan gw baik-baik aja. Meskipun pada kenyataannya tidak, gw lebih sering ngejawabnya dengan 'baik'. Karena gw tahu, hanya segelintir teman yang bertanya hanya untuk basa-basi. Jadi bukanlah sebuah perkara bagi mereka apakah kondisi saya baik atau tidak. Yang lebih buruk adalah menjawabnya dengan tidak. Segelontor pentanyaan lanjutan pasti bakal meluncur. Ujung-ujungnya tentu saja menjadi sebuah buah bibir. Sesuatu yang akan dia bicarakan dengan teman gw yg lain dan menjadikannya sebagai bahan obrolan.

Ketika gw bertanya "eh gimana kabar lo" gw biasanya kebayang gw berada di daerah dia berada. Merasa menjadi dia. Rasanya kaya berpindah dalam tempat dan waktu masuk ke dunia dia. Dan jawabannya akan menjadi sebuah skenario yang melayang di dalem otak gw.

"gw baik-baik aja" > ini akan membentuk sebuah dunia dimana lo merasa nyaman. Dimana lo merasa aman.

"gw tidak dalam keadaan baik" > rasanya seperti dunia lo menjadi muram dan sejumlah masalah datang beruntutan. Tidak enak.

Dan, masalah terakhir, beberapa rekan selalu bertanya tentang apa yang gw lakuin. Kenapa bisa begini dan lainnya. Gw cuman bisa ngasih jawaban berupa senyuman ato mengalihkan jawaban tersebut ke hal lain. Mencoba mengalihkan pikiran dia mengenai diri gw. Gw gak mau orang lain masuk kedalam dunia gw yang kayanya ga bakal gw bagi dengan orang lain. Mengenai beberapa cerita yang terjadi yang mungkin ga pernah kepikiran buat mereka. Hal-hal apa yang telah gw lalui. Dan gw akan membiarkan itu terjadi. Biarkan saja mereka menghakimi gw sebagai orang dengan citra negatif dan hal-hal ga baik lainnya. Masa bodo.

Keadaan gw bukan hal yang jadi sebuah penyesalan. Ini adalah jalan diberikan oleh Dzat tertinggi yang lo percayai dalam agamu lo masing-masing. Ini adalah path of life. Kita kan ga pernah tau, keadaan sekarang akan berlanjut dimasa mendatang. Mungkin hidup kita senang sekarang. Mungkin nanti tetap senang. Mungkin tidak. Semua pengalaman adalah pembelajaran. Masa lalu tidak boleh dilupakan. Lucu membaca pernyataan seorang rekan "gw ga peduli masa lalu". Sungguh sebuah hal yang fatal. Mengindahkan masa lalu karena merasakan nikmatnya dunia yang sekarang.

Yah, biarin aja, dia dan pemikiran dia. Mungkin itu adalah jalur yang dia rasa memang hidupnya. Dan pada akhirnya, sesuatu yang sejati akan terus ada disana. Entah itu teman, orang tersayang, keluarga dan pendirian. Gw rasa gw akan melanjutkan langkah. Pelan? tidak masalah. Cepat? asal tidak tersandung. Sederhana bukan?

Henrik José - They Killed The Kid

2010-10-24T00:44:00.000-07:00

I like the vocal and the music. Nice.

Re-Work on Blog

2010-10-23T21:27:00.000-07:00

I'm doing my music blog again. More than a year abandoned. I guess i miss the feel of making a good writings of music and search for new fresh stuff to enjoy.

I am a never-ending-satisfied-human-being. So let's move, shall we?

Ketika seorang wanita jatuh cinta kepada seorang pria

2010-10-23T19:33:00.000-07:00

Ya. Ketika seorang cewe naksir seorang cowo, pasti banyak hal yang unik terjadi. Ini dalam kasus ketika sang cowo tidak tertarik kepada sang cewe. Bearti kaya cinta bertepuk sebelah tangan kan? Hal kaya gini lumrahnya terjadi antara seorang cowo terhadap seorangc cewe. Tapi dijaman yang edan gini, apapun bisa terjadi.

Seorang teman bercerita bahwa dia naksir seorang temen cowo nya. Sang cowo adalah seorang teman lama. Sangat lama. Namun sang cewe menyimpan benih cinta yang lama-kelamaan kok manjadi-jadi. Dan dia pun bertanya, kira-kira pantas ga jika seorang cewe melakukan kegitan tembak-menembak? Tentu saja gw bilang boleh dong, kenapa tidak.

Namun perbedaannya, cara menyatakan cinta dari seorang cewe terhadap seorang cowo tentu saja harus lebih terkesan feminim. Maksudnya biar jelas gitu siapa yang menjadi cowo ato menjadi cewe disini. Ga lucu kan kalo cewe menjadi jauh lebih dominan daripada cowo dan pada akhirnya sang cowo menjadi sebuah objek yang dikendalikan oleh sang cewe. Singkat kata, menyatakan harus lebih halus.

And she did it as i adviced her. Gw acungkan jempol buat sang cewe. Keberanian menyatakan perasaan kepada seorang cowo adalah hal yang sangat berat bagi seorang cewe. Seorang cewe pemberani. Bukan seorang cewe yang dominan. Itu saja.

We, the wanderer ones.

2010-10-12T05:04:00.000-07:00

Who are we now?

None can blame changes. Changes are like pulsing light of the sunlight. Keeping them come again and again. Altough i feel now everything is turning so wrong and awkward. Because of issues that are never need to talk about. We choose to leave it behind.

Who are you now? I no longer recognize you old friend. You are somebody else now.

Farewell Geocities

2010-05-10T07:13:00.000-07:00

Years ago I was a big fan of free web hosting. Having a website was a big thing back in early 2000s. I made my class' homepage in highschool on Geocities. Although not all my friend really loved to dig internet in that time, but having a website of our class was an honor.

Geocities which was acquired by Yahoo! back then, now is closed. Traditional web hosting is beaten by blog including micro-blogging like Twitter or Plurk. People seems have less interest to design their own website now. Except for professionals, website is still a tool to represent identity on world wide web. Putting CV, portfolio, or even just snapshots from your camera.

Geocities bring so much memories to me. I was scrathing the website from notepad and learning to use WYSIWYG editor like Frontpage or Dreamweaver. Old great times. Now, i'm saying farewell to geocities. One of memorable place in this virtual world.

A Beautiful Afternoon

2010-05-09T07:27:00.000-07:00

This afternoon was very slow. Warm, soft sunshine. The air was so light. One of the best weather this year.

Swinging the Strawberry Swing

2010-05-09T07:20:00.000-07:00

I never thought i would like this song. First listen felt so dull. No fun or imagination. But when i watched the clip, it felt so different. This is one of clip that changes my mind about a song.

Coldplay is one of my favorite band ever. The first time i heard about them was back in 1999. It's like more that 10 years ago. Living in a small town, searching for the Parachute album. Magically, i got it in a music store and the one and only record of coldplay that was available there. It's in cassette. That sounds so oldie huh.

Back to Strawberry Swing, the clip itself is a very rich creativity created by Shynola. The clip really blew my mind. Like seeing sunshine after stormy rain. Enlightment. Enjoying the clip was opening my ears about the song. It was like having a fresh sound and felt so good. You should watch it.

Read more about this clip, here.

The Importance of Sri Mulyani

2010-05-08T21:40:00.000-07:00

Last days news was buzzed with the departure of Sri Mulyani as financial minister of Indonesia to World Bank's managing director. This is interesting to follow.

Sri Mulyani was all over the news before because of her status in one of greatest banking case in Indonesia. She was accused by parliament as one of decision maker who made Indonesia suffered so much loss. Unsatisfied parliament was trying to take her down from her current position in that time.

It's becoming an intriguing case when she decided to leave that hot seat. What happens next? BSI's index was fallling down. Why is that. Investors got trust in her. Her acts & decisions were good in market view. But not in political view. Make me questioning myself, is the importance of the existance of Sri Mulyani deserved to be preserved?

As she already decided to make her way to World Bank, it is not bad anyway. Leaving her beloving country to pursue a better career and life. Why is so wrong with that when in her own homeland she got troubled. But what now? Is it the time to regret her departure? No. This is a time for other capable person to replace her. Giving a chance. It's a refreshment.

Let's just congratulate Sri Mulyani for her achievemrnt and let's move forward. Indonesia still got skilled and talented personal to handle the hot seat of financial minister.

Back to Blogger

2010-05-07T12:38:00.000-07:00

It feels so hard to maintain a blog. The first time i use blogger was around 2004. It that time, Blogger wasn't integrated yet with Google. The features was very limited and editing the template was such a pain. But it was indeed fun.

By years, i moved to wordpress. Considering WP as an advance blogging tools. WP offered so much things that i thought was very challenging. I did have some blogs on Wordpress, both on Wordpress hosted and on an independent server. Got my own domain and having so much fun with the coding behind it. Reallly good.

But, to maintain wordpress as a personal blog was not really necessary. While personal blogging is intended to share stuff without too much hassles. So i finally decide it to move back to Blogger. Simply because now Blogger is integrated with many Google's services that i use most. Mail, docs, reader and of course search engine. So let it be.
I am welcoming myself back to Blogger. Hello Blogger.